INSIDE MY MIND

Should I wait for you,
Or should I start walking?
I do want to stop for you,
Yet I am not sure
If that’s what you want too!

There are onlookers—
What will they make of it?
Am I thinking too much?
Am I fussing a little too bit?

I don’t want it to be apparent;
Maybe I should stop
To inspect the ground,
Or halt and tie my laces.
That would look natural,
Yes! That’s what I’ll do!

But wait!
My shoes don’t have strings,
Neither is the ground interesting.
I am sure, I’ll give away
A glimpse of my feelings.

Perhaps I should start
Walking a little slower,
Giving you an option
To catch up, if you want.

Maybe you’ll walk a little faster;
Maybe you don’t care
What it looks like to others.
Or just you’re more confident
Than I ever will be!

So I put my head down
And walk a little heavily.
I can feel your gaze
On my back,
And your questioning eyes.

That’s when I realize
You are as shaky as I am;
You are as unsure as I am.
And that’s when I think,
Damn! I should have just waited!
Sending you the right signals,
Edging you further on.

But well, this opportunity is lost,
Wasted over insecurities
And questioning minds.
Nevertheless, I still look forward
To waiting for you when I reach.

Maybe then you’ll be able to see
My heart flutter
At your sight,
A skipped heartbeat
Or two!

And finally, you’ll realize
I am waiting for you
To make a move.
My answer is yes!
With a smile
And a groove!

Have you ever found yourself in a similar situation, caught between waiting and moving forward? Share your thoughts and experiences in the comments below! Let’s talk about the moments when hesitation got the better of us, and how we can learn to take the leap next time.